This Blog is No Longer Active

I mean, I will post every once in a while. On holidays, for example. And I will still be on Skype and Twitter, so feel free to strike up a conversation with me. Ahem, I mean, please keep in touch. Please? But I will no longer be posting regularly on the Diary. You are still welcome to view the archives and comment.

I don't have the time to post or contribute anymore, nor a reason to do so. I don't enjoy this anymore. Thank you to everyone, thanks to my friends, thanks for all the feedback I've gotten over the years, thank you to every one that has supported me and thank you to everyone that has contributed to this community.

Virtual hugs and fist pumps to all of you, from meh!

Take care!

-The now almost nonexistent Jessica Fairyheart

Monday, August 29, 2011

Lessons learned

Over the past couple of years, I've learned a lot. Grown a lot. Matured a lot. I suspect it will, or is, the same for many of you out there. If this is my last post, I hope it's a post you will enjoy. (And this is my last post, to clear up the confusion. So thank you all, and please read my notice above this.)

My posting has weaned off quite a lot within the last year. Honestly, I have trouble remembering what I posted about before. But in place of that posting, I've been Skyping and tweeting. Not enough to make up for it, but hopefully because of it, I still have a place here.

When I think of, or look back on my old posts, I feel embarrassed. I wasn't as "wise" as I am now, I couldn't write, I failed at organization. But now I realize, it was a process. It's because of those old posts, the ones I feel so embarrassed about, that got me where I am now. And I am eternally grateful to everyone that cheered me on, gave me feedback, and created this game that we all are writing about. It's mushy, I know. (I used to be VERY mushy. Trying to tone it down. :P)

I'm sure in a few years I will look back on all my posts, including this one. I will be embarrassed. I will be annoyed at myself for posting something so stupid.

Here be a few lessons that I can only hope others have learned as well.

One thing I think I've done, over the past few years, is hone my writing skills. Reading everyone else's posts have taught me a number of things. Grammar, organization, spelling, all those little technical things that really make your writing enjoyable. And deeper things. I find when I write about these "deeper things" I'm far too immature and it just seems silly. For example, this post. I wasn't even sure I would publish it, but I thought I'd take the plunge and see what people think about it.

I've also learned, and I hope others have too, that on the internet, you have to watch what you say. It never goes away, even if you delete it. So make sure you THINK before you talk. You can never be quite sure what will start another Wizard War.

Speaking of Wizard Wars, I hope everyone's learned a bit about problem solving. Remember that Controversy post I did? I was caught in the middle of a 'war' due to my misbehavior. Yeah, it worked out fine in the end. It's unfortunate it happened, but the most you can hope for is that you've learned a lesson.

One "classic Wizard101 moment" is when another player barges into your fight without asking. Or one of your more annoying, not-as-close friends ports to you in the middle of a private matter and starts asking everyone what you're talking about. (Okay, I admit, I've done that before.) The cheesy lesson in all this is respect. Yes, THAT word. The one that annoying elementary school guidance counselor always used. Respect other people, blah blah. But it's a skill that's crucial in life, no matter where you want to go.

Some people turn to Wizards as a retreat. A way to make friends they'd never have in real life. Fooling around with friends you'd never have in the real world is a unique experience. It teaches you to respect differences and to look past their appearance into their personality.

Creativity. Now you're confused. How is there creativity, of all things, in a community of people obsessed with a video game? Don't they just play this game and talk about what they did?

No, communities do much, much more than that. We dig deep into the game. We look at things that are seemingly random, and we see a pattern. We create fan art, "music videos", music. It's much more than an obsession. For some people, everything you see, even a small log by the sidewalk, is automatically *somehow* connected to Wizard101. It's creativity.

And when others that haven't experienced the magic of this game say that it's immature, you learn that not everyone can appreciate everything you do. You can make them try it, and maybe they'll agree with you, but maybe they won't, and that's okay too. Again, respecting others' differences.

So here I am, working on the first draft of this post on a tiny keyboard in the wee hours of the night. I just couldn't go to sleep without writing this post.

Edit: This is now probably the 3rd revision, and the post is still as bad. Oh well.

It's been a journey for me, getting this far.

You should be glad I didn't add a bad simile to the end of this post.

Take care!


Blaze Shadowhorn said...

When are you making the post on who won the House-A-Palooza Contest?

Heather Raven said...


This NOT a silly or immature blog post. In fact I agree and second everything you say here. You point out several key points that can make (or break) our community. Our respect, our creativity, and our willingness to take risks keeps our community together. In fact it can keep just one person together for their life in the real world.

Okay deep stuff aside, I can totally relate about reading back over one's life as it were. I keep a journal where I write, and it's amazing to see how much BETTER I've gotten over the years. True much of my old work and ideas I think is dreadful rubbish, or even embarrassing enough to make me blush, but it made me a better writer today.

Wait. That was deep too. Darn it.


Kestrel Shadowthistle said...

This was a great post. You took the words out of my mouth. Or fingers, since I'm typing, or whatever.

I've actually been thinking along those same lines lately (actually, I was considering doing a post kind of like this, but never got around to it). I'm really a different person than I was when I started blogging. It's been almost two years, and a lot has happened since then. I write very differently, and I think about what I post a lot more.

Anyway, thanks for posting this, it was much appreciated.

Fin and Quinn said...

Sigh....the whole war of the Officials...

That was my fault. You shouldn't feel bad about it. I acted terribly, and you responded accordingly. You had EVERY right to do what you did.

In conclusion...don't feel bad about it.

A very remorseful,

P.S Great Post, don't scrap it :D